This past semester has been unexpectedly busy and although very enjoyable, there has been a change in my heart that I can’t quite express in words. Starting a few weeks ago, I’ve become more emotional than I usually am and I’m thinking maybe it’s because I haven’t had a lot of time to meet up with people, leading me to think too much on my own. So this blog will most likely be a mix of brain dumps as well as thought-out dumps. I made this blog as an outlet to share my joys and my struggles… to think through them out loud, be thankful for them out loud, and pray about them out loud. I am reminded time and time again that without Christ, I am nothing.

Lately, my greatest joy comes from the community God has placed me in. He meets me in places and times so unexpectedly, yet so purposefully. I’m surrounded by people whom I love and who love me. That leads me to one of my (many and) greater struggles – loneliness. Ironic, I know haha. It’s weird to think that even when I know I have a community of people I can turn to, it’s easy for me to feel like I don’t have anyone and the only explanation is that only Christ can fill that void in my heart. My biggest struggle spiritually, is reading the Word consistently and turning to the Word as a source of comfort, especially when I am emotional. So I’m also hoping this blog will serve as a source of accountability with any readers and as a source of encouragement.

I pray for my family and my friends, and I’m able to share that sometimes I feel hopeless about them coming to Christ. How can my merely human mind imagine something that feels so impossible?.. but I was reminded this past weekend through a sister, that not only is He an amazing and faithful God – He is a God of the impossible. For that, I am thankful.

All of these things are thoughts that I wake up to and tend to have a hard time expressing to other people and often even to myself. I pray that I could be someone who is vulnerable, thankful, and prayerful. God, you have placed in me a desire to devote all I am to you – to live my days glorifying You and praising Your name. You are my whole heart… Thank you, Jesus.